i've been in a lot of pain recently. many tests and needles(AHH!!) later, i'm in more pain than ever. it would be so easy to give up on my quest for health. to forget this diet, and any advice and just live how i want. it's very easy to get upset, depressed, frustrated with the situation. i've kept it in for so long, it would be very easy to explode out with all of the things i've been feeling. BUT in the midst of all the pain, confusion, anger, and chaos..i choose to be happy. now each day is different and I cant always claim that I have the best attitude all the time, that is impossible. but I choose love, joy, laughter. these things are what keep me going. I had one of my worst days (as far as pain) the other day, and surprisingly..it was one of the best days i've had. I was smiling throughout the whole day, giddy from pure joy. It was incredible. I'm sure God put it inside me and helped me get through that day. It was a very strange prospect. And as I talked to people I realized that yes taking care of me and my health is important. But connecting, loving, giving, Living..is more important. It's so cliche but I love the movie Wall-e. And one of my favorite quotes in that movie has stuck with me and become something i strive to do/be each day.
"i dont wanna survive, i wanna Live"
How will you "live" to-day?
Thank you for sharing your pain AND joy! I stuggle with pain daily also but, have no doubt that my God is walking this path with me! Great Joy to you Bekah!
ReplyDelete