music

music is my passion. it's what drives me, wakes me up, gets me excited. it's sad that i have been unable to truly write any music recently. sometimes, though, waiting can give you exactly what you are looking for. my love of music cannot even be expressed. i smile. i laugh. i cry. all in the rise and fall of a melodic pattern strung together to play on my heart strings. it is truly a blessing to see that God knows this about me and so this is one of the main ways He speaks to me. He will comfort me with a song about His love and forgiveness at just the right time. Every time it happens, i'm truly taken aback and it makes me wonder what I ever did to deserve this kind of attention. but that's just the point. i didnt. there is nothing i can do to deserve the Love that God shows me every single day. now i need to stop and be able to open my eyes to all of the things He has for me each day. i run thru my life too quickly sometimes, focused on how much i can get done or how "busy" i can make myself. why? and while it is not good to just sit around and do nothing all the time (we are called to act) sometimes we need to take moments to reflect. i am sorry for all the times i have brushed God aside. and I will be sorry for all the times I will do it in the future. So how I can bless God to-day? How can I take His love that He exudes out to me and shine it back? I think God provides me with an answer..music. Every note being a concious act of worship back to the creator. I wonder if He gets as excited when I play/sing for Him as I get when He uses music to speak to me? i will sing.